John Allen survives yet another battle with “what is”.
meditation, questioning,critical thinking,
what the fuck is happening now?
who am i?
John Allen and what is.
00:09 Deconstruction of musical mirror. Brown Sugar cultural time capsule.
01:45 Don’t want that in the mirror. Don’t want that in the mirror
02:33 Groundlings demanding a different ending for Hamlet.
4:00 Cinema Verite: Taking a sip of coffee.
06:36 So much for Cinema Verite
07:47 People think Trump is the epitome of an American businessman because he played one on TV.
09:00 A little aside about ex girlfriends. Yuuch. Cinema Verite
10:15 We’ve been really good friends but I had to have a heart attack.
11:00 Walking the walk and talking the talk.
11:45 Feeling better is taking a pill
13:16 Maybe this is the one. One what?
14:05 I get these little periods of bliss and then they just kinda run out of gas.
15:44 Every once in a while one of them will come off the ground that I haven’t seen before.
!5:45 I really am a horrible lying hypocritical asshole.
15:46 Oh and a leech.
17:08 Wait for thunderbolt. No thunderbolt.
19:40 It’s like being a parent again. Ooops. Again. Still. Right. I am a parent still.
20:20 I have to be responsible. Is it true?
21:27 Amateur Lesbian Porn
24:15 The worst for a guy. It’s okay.
24:40 Viagra. The boys on the bench.
26:00 I knew a guy who blew a guy’s head off with a shotgun.
26:05 Wrote a play about it.
27:00 Upper Canada boys.
29:15 Engagement theory
30:41 Boys run them like dogs
32:00 Homework. Worthless.
33:00 1971. I thought that was what the world would always be like.
34:33 The Stones.
37:00 We the people couldn’t handle it.So we gave it back
39:35 Sounding tired. Sorry
40:24 OJ Simpson trial. The Usurping of public power. Monarchy is back.
42:00 Going into hope and I dont want to go into hope but…
43:00 Trump as a trip wire waking up the people; The beauty of the American system
46:00 I always wanted to be a cop when I played as a kid so I could be in charge.
47:00 Friendships are tough.
48:00 Slipping into senility.
48:23 Bad reading of the Hollow Men. Indulgence.
John Allen and what is.
00:30 You say you want a revolution
1:55 I like the battle of Stalingrad as much as the next guy
2:22 True confessions.
3:08 My friend Dave
4:00 Another Cassandra moment
4:35 Terrific bang…Yuuch…I didn’t like the way I said that. At all
5:05 No no no we are just friends.
5:50 Lets face it Old Guys are not great.
6:30 I’ll just dance by myself and look at the floor.
7:00 Snitch culture
7:45 High falutin’
9:03 I just don’t talk to anybody. It’s easier.
9:45 When they take over they aren’t going to be very nice to the people they take over from…Just guessin’
10:50 Okay not cheering about somebody being shot. Making a point about the media acting like a squirrel on speed.
14:00 Lets rat each other out.
15:30 They are showing you who they are…
17:20 Purity test
18:15 You are the one who is high and mighty
19:00 We come in wholes not parts
20:00 PTSD dating flash back
21:50 Jazz baby jazz
23:00 The Soon Come
25:02 Those gals they brought it down
26:15 Sex clubs and dancing.
29:25 I don’t want to know anymore.
30:20 This is actually funny
31:00 Dick farm
32:00 The dream: Commenting about myself commenting about myself.
32:30 Snitch culture
33:15 Ooops…raised my voice…
34:00 If I say chick and it just makes you fucking crazy…
39:00 Don’t die for your country let the other poor dumb fucker die for his.
41:00 Twinkly lights. My origin story
42:00 I had to find out. What happened? Where did those people go? Where will I go?
45:25 There is nothing as horny as a married guy.
47:00 That Soon Come feeling.
48:07 I didn’t get to talk about how I feel like I am going to die all the time. Too bad.
49:00 Speaking about dying…
49:30 Quick Dad story.
51:00 Where was I?
John Allen takes on what is. Its a draw. Nah. What is always wins.
And of course Amateur Lesbian Porn.
See. I told ya I would do it.
2:17 Requiem for the Pandemic
05:58 Amateur Lesbian Porn Revisited
6:50 If ya gotta rub one out for sleep I get it.
8:30 I’m going to be living in a maytag box
9:10 I am not who I think I am. I am not who you think I am. I am who I think you think I am.
10:30 The looking glass self
11:30 The past is created from here
12:45 Breaking News: We are all going to die. We are always in the present.
13:30 It seems so fucking obvious.
13:45 After a certain age you got no fucking excuse.
15:15 We are going to defund the police force. Bad marketing idea.
15:45 Mr and Mrs. Anywhere: What the fuck? You want to get rid of the police force?
16:25 Have any of you met anybody who is a really bad guy?
17:30 Freaking out about saying “you know” while I talk about my Dad going to jail.
18:30 I don’t want your blood money. Just let me get in my Jaguar.
19:40 The Fugue. Do the fugue.
20:00 Most people want to talk about how to feel better. I want to talk about getting in their pants.Bummer.
20:45 Repeating myself. Triggered memory of old girl friend hating me for repeating myself. That’s three times you told me that.
23:30 Shocked out of your thoughts. Shocked out of your yourself.
24:40 Am I having a heart attack?
24:50 How would I do these notes?
24:30 I’ll show you. I’ll give it to you for free. Fuck you Return on Investment culture.
26:00 Defence Mechanism Alert: I was a good parent because I didn’t want kids.
27:30 You know what I mean Jelly bean.
28:04 Investigations. Yoga. Ex girlfriends.
29:00 If you feel bad about the protest.
29:10 I am Cassandra. I dont look good in a dress.
29:00 Best sex Apollo ever had.
31:00 Awful confession. Among many.
31:30 Hard time on the blower.
32:00 The thing that you see in the protests you can see in yourself.
33:00 Democracy is the worst form of government, except for all the others. Churchill.
36:00 Nice sweet story about a stoned cold killer.
37:30 Should I tell that story? The Mr. Peanut story. No. But then I did. Figures.
38:45 A red neck tie
39:30 Memory…a compost heap of a poetic image.
43:00 Memory are episodes and are constructed from here.
44:50 John says hi.
John Allen and what is.
Tie goes to the runner.
2:23 We gots no balls… no offence to eunuchs
3:20 Eclectic guy
3:45 Rioting is kind of a gas
4:20 Putting porn in all the titles.
4:50 lesbian porn
5:24 I’ve gotten awful Zen. I hit a three wood off the carpet.
6:30 Elephant in the room
9:23 Empathy is an act of imagination
10:30 The don’t know place
11:45 Wooo hoo the call…wake the fuck up
12:40 Man that’s work
14:00 Go to the worst place right away
17:30 If I did that today they would take me out to the ditch and shoot me like a dog
19:00 If you reward people for greed. Big surprise when they act greedy.
21:00 Not a war…not when you can get take out
22:30 How can I go dancing?
23:15 Boring myself here…who the fuck cares what I eat…fuck off…I hate this guy
24:00 How do we deal with racism? Look inside. There is a place inside you that despises you.
26:15 Shut the fuck up man…I was just thinking that…
27:02 I was addicted to a woman and I guess I always have been.
28:45 Why is this guy laughing?
29:50 Let’s start with being battered.
32:30 Terrible job. Keeping the status quo static.
32:45 Bad singing